Lypophrenia

Lypophrenia (n.) - a vague feeling of sorrow or sadness seemingly without any apparent cause or source

I don't even know if that word really exists but that pretty much explains what I'm feeling right now. I don't know how it happened, but suddenly I just feel so down. I can't find any reason as to why I feel this way. One moment I was reading, giddy and all, then all of a sudden I feel sad. I can't even function normally.

I was supposed to write a new chapter for my story but this feeling is a hindrance. I can't concentrate. Instead of writing what I planned (happy chapter), all I could type is exactly opposite from happy. I even started playing upbeat songs to uplift my mood but it doesn't help.

This isn't the first time I feel this emotion and seriously, every time I'm feeling this way, I get so cranky. The first time I experienced this was during my early teenage years. I just started crying and when my friends asked me why, I can't even answer them. I just keep on sobbing. There's also this one time during college I felt whatever this is. I cursed which shocked my friend since she doesn't hear me cussing. (Because when I was in college and 'til now, I stop cussing except when I'm feeling so frustrated and angry.)

This feeling sucks.